Friday, October 21, 2011

Skeletons (Two Face)


Firstly, apologies for not meeting my post a week goal. The Dickens have been busy recording a little demo/ep and I have been quite busy at work. Forgive the brevity of this post then!

I have a goal of trying to make the skeleton of at least one song a week. This discipline means that sometimes you get an ideas worthy of investment, sometimes you just get a headache. I panic a bit if I don't have new ideas each week. I wonder if songwriting is a finite resource in each person. I can't tell anymore if I am writng good or bad songs. They just are what they are. I keep pressing in. I hope it will result in something I can proud of. I just can't tell...

This song comes from one of those weekly panic sessions. Here is the process:

1. Pick up acoustic guitar.
2. Strum away until I hum a tune
3. Quickly record it onto my phone so I don't forget it
4. Set up my archaic old zoom 8-track
5. Lay down a quick drum pattern to play along to.
6. Record bass, and two-three guitars
7. Throw some words down
8. Post it here

Remember, everything posted here is a skeleton. Nothing is finished. Only started. It is here to track the progress. They are genuine demos. Moments of my Sunday afternoon or evening pasted into memory.



Two Face (Demo)
(Words and music: Andrew Savage)


Sunday, October 9, 2011

Three for one (Modern Man, Lose the War, You don't have to hide your face)

I've been thinking a lot recently about the inevitability of failure and disappointment and its relationship with aspiration, vision, and hope. It's the old cliche. The higher you aim, the further you fall. The stakes just become more attractive. And more terrifying.


But I can't stay still.


It's ok.

These are just wolves on my trail, waiting to cut me down. I know they are there. So I keep watch! I own them. Feed them. Tame them. Keep them at bay as along as I can.

I wear my shirt down to the bone. Aiming to be a transparent as I can. Inviting accountability.

And so I have come to accept that hypocrisy is inevitable.
Corruption can creep up on me.
Integrity will  be fleeting.
Fear will win by default.
Shame is a cell.


This song is called 'Modern Man'. It is a few months old. When I first made it up, I thought it was very throw away. But I will put it here for posterity. It is about a man who has all the right rhetoric, reads all the right books but fails to deliver to those closest to him.



Modern Man (demo)
(Words & music: Andrew Savage)

I opened the door
You close it again
When you tell a joke
It's like the walls cave in
I'd give anything
To change your hand
It's not what it means to be a modern man

And when she comes back to haunt you
How will she understand?
That the tears she shed
For the book you read
Doesn't make you
A modern man

You leave her waiting
On the edge of a knife
For the rhetoric of your principled life
When the levee breaks
You put your head in the sand
It's not what it means to be a modern man

And when she comes back to haunt you
How will she understand?
That the tears she shed
For the book you read
Doesn't make you
A modern man


'Lose the War' is an intensely personal song. It is about personal failure and the need for redemption. I will let it speak for itself. I haven't shown this to anyone before. I don't think I would ever take it to a band. It served a purpose though, I suppose.



Lose the War (demo)
(Words & music: Andrew Savage)

You and I were a house of cards
We were always going to fall
I spent forever in your back yard
Waiting for the sky to fall
And I'm going to lose the war
I want to go home

And I'm going to lose the war
I made a promise that I couldn't keep
I was too young to know
We were playing make believe
I couldn't win
I couldn't win the war

And I want to go home
I'm going to lose the war

I want to go home
I'm going to lose the war

You know I never meant it
I wish that I could lose it



This song must be at least 6 years old. It is called 'You Don't Have to Hide Your Face' and it sounds to me much too close to a U2 song called Mother's of the Disappeared. It must have been in my subconscience, beacuse even some of the lyrics are the same...Well, I can't change that now, so here it is as it stands. I was thinking about the last supper and my two favourite disciples,Thomas and Judas. The doubter and the traitor. I love their weakness. I understand it. We are all Judas, we are all Thomas. We are not all Peter. So this song is about me and Judas, me and Thomas. It is about recovering from disaster. Toppling your shame. Rebuilding your integrity after losing it all.



You Don't Have To Hide Your Face (demo)
(Words & music: Andrew Savage)

In the upstairs room
Taking bribes
Bits on the side
You're my heartbeat
In my heartbeat
I fell for you on your hanging tree
Your tongue says the same as me
You're my heartbeat
In my heartbeat

We're one
The same
You with your coins
And me with my shame

You don't have to hide your face
We carry on
We carry on

Dipping bread in red wine
I play the fool
You play the liar
You're my heartbeat
In my heartbeat

Take the hand of my brother
Take the hand of my sister
And run
And run

You don't have to hide your face

We carry on
We carry on
We're one
The same